Chapter 1

As i walked out into the beach Sirius shouted out "FAY! Where to?" I shouted back "Just walking Ace!"
"Kay" he replied "be back before 9"
I turned and gave him a thumbs up and grinned. He waved at me as i turned back around. It was chilly i was wearing a gray sweatshirt with some jeans and my black uggs(outfit:http://www.polyvore.com/556734/set?id=21646967) i cant remember when i never had a sweater on ever since that stupid growth spurt i always wore sweaters or hoodies to big for me in rare occasions i would wear a loose t-shirt. I remember in 8th grade i wore my cardigan for promotion in was a loose cardigan i had just purchased at forever 21 and it fit perfect although Sirius couldn't see what was wrong with having a growth spurt the first time i told him why he said "well maybe you'll finally be in the Popular Crowd" and i remember i had stuck my tongue out at him and said "well maybe i don't want to be popular!" and i had stomped back to my room. The only ones that have seen me with a tank top are my brother Ace and my Mom. My mother said i should wear tighter shirts and that maybe i would get a boyfriend. I sighed i walked all the way to where only one palm tree stood and sat down in the sand i took my folded paper and my pencil and started to draw the horizon. I was almost done when i heard someone come I looked up ugh just what i needed it was Ivan one of the popular kids "Hey Bell"
"My names not bell its Bellatrix." i said quietly.
"okay then," he said in an annoyed voice "what do we have here" he took the paper from my hands he laughed and said in a teasing voice "ooo, how pretty"
I said " Can i have my paper back now?" my voice rising
He has a mischievous smile in his face "Oh, little Bellatrix wants her paper back, do you now? well then come and get it" he ran up the beach nearing the highway.
"Jake," I said in a calm voice," give me my paper back" Sadness flashed in his eyes and as soon as it was there it left and he said
"I remember, we used to be best buddies you and me weren't we?" I nodded
" Why?" ha said in an almost pained voice his hand was down now it was no longer raised.
"Why," he repeated "did you isolate yourself and left with summer?"
I replied "You wouldn't understand i changed and summer was there for me when i made those changes"
He laughed" Yes, you did you started walking, and daydreaming and painting but that was no reason to leave me."
I didn't know what to say he said "forget it" and again started running with my paper but instead of toward the highway he was running side by side to it I ran to get it no way i was going to let him have it.
I finally caught up to him and threw myself on him, we landed on the sun i got my paper and was going to get up but his hands were wrapped around my waist and he turned i was now over him instead of beside him his hands still around my waist his face was less than two inches away and he looked at me and closed his eyes and leaned toward me and kissed me and the worst part is that i kissed him back. 'Idiot' i thought when i was kissing him he pressed me toward his chest then finally he broke the kiss and said "Well who knew Bellatrix Faith is the best kisser ever" i stood up and said " I Have to get home." then he stood up it started raining 'man' i thought 'how did i not remember the forecast' "Come on" he said " my house is right here" we ran to his house. As soon as we got there i called Sirius Ace "Hello"
"Ace, Its me Bella"
"Where are you its 8:30"
"You said 9"
"Yeah but" i cut him off
"I'm at Ivan's it started raining so i cant walk home"
"Ivan Jacob? well okay but start walking as soon as it stops raining or if it doesn't stay over there."
"Uhh.. Okay i guess"
"well, let me speak to him"
"Kay"
I turned to see Ivan playing with my hair I said "Sirius wants to speak to you"
He grabbed the phone then walked to the hall. He came back a few minutes later and said "you can stay in my oldest sisters room she in college so she doesn't live here she lives in the college you can wear anything in her closet and my parents are in a business trip until next month so we're here alone" i nodded and headed upstairs where he told me it was i looked in the closet and there was only tight shirts in there and i was soaked so i decided to put a tank top and some shorts she had it was the biggest shirt she has and the least revealing. When i put on the shirt it stuck to me and the shorts were also really tight i guess she was super skinny.(outfit:http://www.polyvore.com/13/set?id=24320845). Ugh i couldn't walk out like this oh well i sighed i walked out of the room barefoot and he was in the kitchen i walked in and sat in a stool he turned around and when he saw me his mouth popped open and he managed to say "you look great" i put my face in my hands and said "no. no i don't" and then i ran up to his sisters room.

Chapter 2

I closed the door behind me not knowing what to do so i sat down in the floor and started crying. Ivan came up and knocked on the door "Hey, did i do something wrong? I'm sorry."
I stood up wiped my face and opened the door he looked at me and asked "You were crying?"
I couldn' t help it i broke down again this time he came in and hugged me and said "Hey, its alright ill take you home Kay?"
I nodded knowing if i talked i would start crying again.
I grabbed my clothes "Can you dry these?"
"Sure" he said worry in his eyes "you gonna be okay?"
"Fine" I lied.
I heard the dryer start then the doorbell rang.
I heard Ivan say "Oh hey Quinn let me just do something upstairs"
I totally had forgotten Ivan has a girlfriend and worst of all shes popular.
He came up and said "get in my room and lock yourself in there if she finds you shes going to go crazy."
I quickly got my ugg boots and hurried to his room and as quietly as i could closed the door.
I was bored so I started looking trough his stuff i found a box about the size of a harry potter book.
I opened it it has letters in envelopes all a addressed to me i opened the one that has the earliest date it was when i was in 3rd grade he in fourth
when i started isolating myself it read:
Bells,
I love you. why did you leave me? i don't like being alone.
Please come back.

Jake.

I then read one he wrote in fourth grade.

Bells,
It's Jake again i still miss you even though i have friends i don't care if your younger.
Just please come and talk to me again. Love you Forever.

Then I was in fifth:
Bellatrix,
you'll probably never read this but i miss you tons i see you at school everyday
and i long to go hug you. why did you leave i still don't understand.
Love You, Jake

Then in sixth:
Bella,
Ive tried to forget you every single day, every time i pass you in the hall i have to contain myself and not hug you
like before or not waving i smile but you're always looking down. I'm always sad i have to get rid of the pain
you wouldn't understand. Miss You and still Love You,
Jake

Then i was in 7th and he was in 8th tears were rolling down my cheeks now:
Bellatrix Faith,
Will you like to go to the promotion dance with me? Probably not. I miss you these
scars in my wrist don't erase my pain. My heart still hasn't healed i thought we
were best buddies forever. Faithfully Yours,
Jake

Then i was i 8th he was in high school:
Bells,
I ask your brother about you everyday, i want to see you
i have gone back razors heal me and i cant feel anything
please come back to me.
Love,
Jake

I was in 9th:
Bella,
Finally get to see you again i want to go talk to you but my friends would make fun of me
sorry I'm sorry i made fun of you when Sirius took you with us and I'm sorry for making those
nasty remarks and posting that stupid letter in you locker.
I'm sorry ill always love you,
Jake

Last Year:
Bells,
i still do it, that's why i always wear long sleeves
even though Quinn is my girlfriend I'm always thinking bout you.
Love, Jake.

Ivan Jacob Barged in the room he said out of breath "shes gone!"
then he saw i had the letters in my hands and his eyes widened

Chapter 3

He entered the room and snatched the letters from my hands and said "You read them all?!"
"I'm Sorry" I exclaimed i was still crying. I was so sorry i was just curious. I should have never even looked around.
He looked at me and said "I just, i was planning to put them in your locker all of them when i graduated but not anymore i guess"
He smiled and me i was still crying arms around myself i looked down afraid to look into his eyes he sat next to me and put his arms around me
i rested my head on his chest. I felt stupid to be the one to break the silence but i just had to ask "Do you?"
I looked up at him he was staring out the window when he said "Do i what?"
I pulled up both of his sleeves and i gasped when i saw it was so many scars and fresh cuts too no more than 2 days.
"I'm sorry" i repeated over and over again.
"For what?" he asked
"I'm Sorry for everything for hurting you for leaving you, i shouldn't have."
"It's okay, if you hadn't left i would've never found out i loved you."
"Who Knows?"
"Me and You"
"I cant be with you not know, you're with Quinn and you cant leave her your reputation and you cant love me"
I stood up and he said
"I know i cant leave her, too much pain ill let her down easy but why cant i love you?"
"you're going to college and other reasons"
"Not Yet, I'm waiting what other reasons?"
"I'm going to the other room."
He just nodded i left the room and shut the door behind me. 
I cant believe it the most popular guy in school loves me.
I couldn't sleep at all i was awake half of the night i finally got tired of turning and tossing in the bed that i went to Ivan's room and slipped in with him
in the covers his bed was queen sized so we both fit i snuggled close to him and asleep he threw his arm around me my head resting on his chest
i let out a sigh and finally fell asleep. When i woke up he was looking at me and said "Good morning beautiful" I smiled up at him and sleepily said
"Hey, handsome" he leaned down and gave me a peck on the cheek.
I ran a hand through my hair and the got dressed in the restroom.
I got out and went to the kitchen and he was there i told him
"Bye, Ivan see you later."
He waved at me and said "See You"
I walked out of the house and sighed i walked home.
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I got home and my mom was sitting on the couch
"Where were you last night?"
"With Ivan Jacob"
"Curfew was at 12:00 not at 7:00 in the morning last time i remember"
"Well it started raining and i couldn't walk home so i slept, in different beds"
She blushed and laughed and said "Oh, well fine"
It wasn't exactly true but we didn't do anything bad, and it helped my mother to calm down i love her don't get me wrong its just that sometimes she likes overreacting. I went to my room and thought what if it is true and he does love me well first of all he cant love me for many reasons
1) hes going to college
2) hes going out with Quinn
and 3) well lets just leave that one out for now.
I fell asleep in my bed when ii woke up it was about 3:00 Sirius came in with out knocking he said "Hey, Fay"
"Hey"
"What are you doing?"
"Nothing much, just woke up"
He thought about this
"Did you sleep last night?"
"Yup, plenty you know me I'm always sleepy."
"that's true" he kept thinking.
I finally got tired of just seeing him stand there and said
"Whats wrong Something with Leah?"
"Yes" he said slowly then said "don't tell mom though i want to be the one to tell her."
I made a face and asked "Is it that bad?"
"Leah, well" he said choking on tears.
"Oh My God!" I ran to him and put my arms around him he put his head on my shoulder and was crying.
"well" he said calming down "Leah is pregnant"
I put my hand over my mouth and then seeing my reaction started crying again and i hugged him again and then i led him to my bed and sat him down and i started pacing.
"When?"I asked
"I, like 3 weeks ago"
"So she about 3 weeks pregnant."
"Yeah, I guess" he replied
I stopped pacing and sat next to Sirius and said "We're going to tell mom"
"What?!" he said aghast
"Come, on before its too late and she finds out by herself you have to?"
He sighed "Okay" We went downstairs to find my mom and we found her in the kitchen
"Mommy" said Sirius his voice shaking.
"Yes." she said when she turned to face us.
"I, I have to tell you something. You better sit down"

Chapter 4

My mom was shouting now "What Were You Thinking?!"
I tried to calm her down "Mom! You Knew it was going to happen we're not kids anymore!"
She looked at me and then at my brother who was looking at the floor tears falling.
She then said "Yeesh, so soon make me gramama?"
"I'm Sorry" Sirius sobbed for the 300th time.
My Mom barely noticed he was crying and then she did she ran and hugged him and said "Everything's going to be fine"
"Oh my, I havent seen you cry like this since you were 5."
He let out a laugh between his sobs. My mother tried comforting him but nothing seem to work he called Leah and told her he already told us she replied crying that her parents gave her until tomorrow to pack and my mom seeing it was her grandkid and Sirius's child let her stay her only if she followed the rules of the house which we only had 3:
1) Keep the house clean
2) Be home before 12:00 and
3) Wash Your Own clothes
"Thanks Mom" Sirius said before going to picking up Leah she decided to leave her house early.
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"Hey" Sirius said entering my room my mom said that i would be sharing a room with Leah i don't mind.
"Hola!" I said jumping off my bed to hug him, man how much i love my brother even though he's so stupid sometimes.
He hugged me back saying "You Know you are the best sister in the world!"
"Yes!" I said nodding. We acted so childish sometimes.
Sirius then said "Okay, thanks for sharing the room, I freaking Love You and I promise if shes a girl her middle name will be Bellatrix and if its a boy i will name it Harry James i promise"
"YES!" I said as i threw myself on my bed.
He laughed at me. 
"So," i said "wheres my sister in law"
"Kitchen" he replied shortly and he looked so stressed out.
I stood up again and as i ran out i patted him on the head and said "Its going to be fine."
I went to the kitchen and sat down on a stool she was making a sandwich on the counter.
"Hello." I said slowly and shyly.
She looked up and said "Hi."
My mouth popped open she looked surprised and then i said in a concieded voice "OH MY GOOOODD!! Leah the popular gurlll fiannlyyy tallkeddd to mee!!!
She laughed and said "You Know you are funny Summer was saying the truth i thought you were a bit concieded thats why you always hung out alone and since you are the smartest girl in the school thought you were better than us."
I laughed and then sighed "Nope. Never concieded. Although made a few changes and stopped hanging out with Jake because of them."
"Jake?" she said confused.
"Ooops i keep saying his name like this i meant Ivan."
She nodded and said "thats his middle name you're the only one thats ever been allowed to call him that not even Quinn"
I just shrugged and stood up and said "so what do you think about Siruis's name choices?"
She grinned and said "they're awesome!"
My eyes widened "No Freaking Way!"
She nodded and laughed I ran and hugged her she hugged me back.
we both shouted at the same time "Harry Potter!"
My brother came running in the kitchen and laughed when he saw we were having a wizarding duel... this lasted for 5 hours around the house i lent her my spare wand it was so fun I won! "Avada Kedavra!" I shouted and she collapsed and then she sat up and we both laughed.
Soon, as in nine that night, we were really good friends we talked long into the night laughing about stupid stuff in the morning i woke up and took a shower a came out with a sweater with a zebra head and a black skirt a black boots http://www.polyvore.com/11/set?id=24320113 and then she woke up and asked what time it was. Six fifty i had replied she stood up got in the shower and came out with a shirt i guess she acquired from forever 21 some jeans and some red vans http://www.polyvore.com/11/set?id=24320113.
Then we headed to school walking i didnt like to ride my yellow porshe to school and well sirius decided not to bring his red camaro.

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